When you face your first real disappointments in life all you do may feel like a waste of time, emotion, money, or effort. Like there is no point in trying anymore.
At the end of my first semester, I needed to find and take an internship in a company. Many of my peers went abroad, but I had no money for even a single flight ticket. So, I was in a foreign country, competing with the locals on the market with a very limited skill set, not speaking the language and having no money to even travel to a bigger city for it. In the first month, I send 140 applications. I got 5 responses. All negative.
It felt like no one in this world will ever take me. Even for free. How can you ever sell yourself to a company if even you don’t believe you have the skills for the job?
I tried again and again, and time was running out. I felt like I was just wasting time even sending the applications. After all, there was no response.
However, in the end, when I finally managed to find an internship, I hold on to it for dear life. I worked day and night to learn as much as possible for my time in the company.
If I found it easy, I would never feel the gratitude I did feel. I would never feel so confident, strong, achieving and learning. So motivated to better myself.
Coming back to university after this summer felt like I was years ahead than when I started.
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